人和人之间相处是不是真的那么难 ？如果在一个人面前 要伪装自己 深怕得罪别人。 如果每天都要这样面对，生活不是很累吗。

为什么不能勇敢向前一步 为什么不能尝试接纳 为什么要在背后说话 为什么就不能好好相处 为什么。

常在想，

毕业后 大家相处的时间更现在比起来 少之又少

以后 我们是不是就会这样各奔西东 然后不再联络

然后说短不短长不长 好歹也至少有10年的友情 就将蒸发 消失。

想尽量挽回 却发现中间隔了一道墙

是朋友 但感情却大不如前

是要拿出多大的勇气去面对 去忍耐 这一切尴尬气氛才会消失在我们之间

是要学会接纳多少事物 才能好好相处

未知数。

也有想过，

赶快毕业行吗

去认识新的朋友 去外面生活 去体验生活

但仔细想想 没有了那些 天天见面的朋友 行吗

是要多久去习惯 是要多久才能戒掉这种习惯。

也许别人对你来说是无关紧要 但有想过对他们来说你可能能够改变他们的生活吗

别再当两面人好吗 有事就说 没必要隐瞒

我们不是朋友吗 朋友是将的吗 不是该有什么说什么的吗

还是对你来说我不是...?

 # Its just my feeling. I wouldn't mind if there's no one feel the exactly same with me. I knew i'm kind of sensitive person. I care too much. I thought if i care that much about people they will care for me too. But i think i'm wrong. Others wont do like what i did. So hey, i dont know how to do. I just go on my life days by days like this. I really feel like want to take a step out like him. And can join with them so happily without anything bad happened. Maybe boys are easier. Yea they are. How i wish im boy sometimes, seriously. Im afraid , what if they feel the way different from you. What if they say bad about you without letting you know. What if i turn out become the people like her. I think too much. I knew. I always think a lot before i make a decision. I wish i would just dont care about anything and be like as crazy like them. But people are different in many ways. How can i be like the same like them. Will myself be more happier afterwards ?  How am i gonna fix this. Im the only one to blame.